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It’s 2:30 Sunday morning and I can’t sleep.  This is not good.  I have to preach in about six hours.

It’s true the Gators lost on the last play of the game to Auburn last night and that got me pretty keyed up.  But its more than that.  I believe emotions are God’s cues that something in yourlife needs to be addressed.  This anxiety that is keeping me awake is telling me I need to talk with God.

I have been asking God to show me barriers in our relationship. What I learned was God will honor that prayer.  The main barrier in my life with God right now is pride - such a recurrent theme in my life.  When you a family of origin that lauds toughness and self sufficiency and cross breed that with being an American male (a Southern American male!) you get a version of pride that leans to stubborness.

I hate to ask for help, even from God.  So God is arranging things in my life so I will remember that I am not in control, I need Him to lead, and only He can make some things happen in my life and in the church I serve.

SO God, I am depending on you.  Forgive me of my sin of pride.  I will remember that my place is in line behind you. 

Now can I go to sleep?

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